[20] 13- So he -la threw me down...

[20] 13- So he -la threw me down, though I had fled to You -azwj from small, ruinous sins and great, deadly works, until, when I had yielded to disobeying You -azwj and merited Your -azwj Wrath through my bad efforts, he -la turned the bridle of his treachery away from me, met me with the word of his -la ingratitude, undertook to be quit of me, [21] turned his back to flee from me, threw me to the desert of Your -azwj Wrath alone, and sent me as an outcast into the courtyard of Your vengeance.

14- There is no intercessor to intercede for me with You -azwj (besides whoever You -azwj Nominate) no protector to make me feel secure against You -azwj , no fortress to veil me from You -azwj , no shelter in which to seek asylum apart from You -azwj ! 15- This is the station of him who takes refuge with Yourself -azwj , the place of the confessor to You -azwj : Let not Your -azwj bounty be too tiny for me, let not Your -azwj Pardon fall short of me!

Let me not be the most disappointed of Your -azwj repentant servants, nor the most despairing of those who come to You -azwj with expectations! (please) Forgive me, surely You -azwj are the best of the forgivers! 16- O Allah -azwj , (when) You -azwj Commanded me, and I refrained, You -azwj Prohibited me, and I committed, evil thoughts tempted me to offend, and I was negligent.

17- I cannot call upon daytime to witness my fasting, nor can I seek sanctuary in night because of my vigil; no Sunna praises me for keeping it alive, only Your -azwj obligations, he who neglects which has perished.

18- I cannot seek access to You -azwj through the excellence of a supererogatory work, given the many duties of Your -azwj obligations of which I have been heedless and the stations of Your -azwj bounds which I have transgressed, thereby violating sacred things and committing great sins, through Your -azwj (Mercy) I find hope of safety from their disgraces as a covering. 19- This is the station of him who is ashamed of himself before You -azwj , angry with himself, and satisfied with You -azwj .

He meets You -azwj with a humble soul, a neck bent down, a back heavy with offenses, hesitating between longing for You -azwj and fear of You -azwj . 20- You -azwj are the most worthy of those in whom he might hope, the most deserving for him to dread and fear. So give me, my Lord -azwj , what I hope for, make me secure against what frightens me, and act kindly toward me with the kindly act of mercy!