Appreciating this knowledge of the Catholic faith in my young age...

Appreciating this knowledge of the Catholic faith in my young age, I was given a scholarship of Rs.15/- from the church funds and in return for the help I received, I was required to receive a special coaching in the guidance of deeper thoughts about certain parts the Holy Book, under the chief priest of the church, who loved me to teach me very much and was very intimately attached to me. He used the special devotional methods of worshipping Jesus and his holy mother.

Having appreciated in the first group for my intermediate course I used to sit working at the subjects till late at night. One night when all were asleep and I was absorbed in my studies, an idea suddenly struck my mind to examine the doctrine of the Holy Trinity, the basic formula of the Christian faith.

The question of how three different things can be one and the same, arose in my mind; that is, how anything singularly absolute in its unity with its indivisible oneness, can ever by itself become divided into three separate beings with three variant native attributes opposed to each other justifying the distribution into the three different entities. My failure to reconcile my belief in the Trinity with the reasoning of the science of logic, created a mental restlessness in me.

Days passed on and many a time I thought of asking my father to help me in solving the problem which puzzled my mind, but I knew that my father would never appreciate the least doubt in the dogmatic belief of the Catholic School and my venture to discuss anything hated by the Catholic faith, would only create further problems in my domestic life.

However, one day when I found my father in a happy mood, I asked him as to how he would defend the Christian faith in the Holy Trinity against the attacks from the members of the other religions of the world. The answer was, "In matters of faith one has to stop reasoning.

One should believe in the doctrine only by one's heart and mind." This reply from my father upset me further more and disappointed me to a very great extant and all my thinking got centered in the question which had become a definite problem to puzzle my mind further, and I wondered saying, "What! Is this the foundation upon which is built the huge edifice of the Christianity faith?