Is the basis of my own faith only a matter of a blind...

Is the basis of my own faith only a matter of a blind following of some dictated belief which can never stand reasoning or the independent scrutiny by the dispassionate and impartial arguments from the clean conscience?" I became much worried and made up my mind to find some argument to somehow to make my much disturbed mind at least imagine that one could at one and the same time be three different persons, and the three different persons, could at the same time remain one.

One day our professor of mathematics was sitting alone in his room and I got in with his permission and asked him if he would help me solve something which, to me, was an intricate and a perplexing problem. He very kindly asked me what it was. I asked him to explain to me in what sense one and the same person could be three different beings and the same three different beings with their individual differences could at the same time be the indivisible absolute one?

The Professor smiled and said, "Is it that you do not like my stay in this college?" I asked him, "Why Sir?" He said, "What do you think the college authorities which are staunch Catholics will do with me, if someone informs them that I discuss in my private room things opposed to the Catholic or the Christian faith in general? Will they keep me on the staff of the college any longer?

If you want to discuss anything here, you may do so but mind you, you must confine your discussion to the subject of your studies in the college, otherwise you will be doing the worst harm to me, for I will be thrown out of my job." I felt the truth in his statement and made an appointment with him to see him the next Sunday at 3:00 p.m. in his house near the Central Market. One Sunday when I met the Professor, he first asked me as to what made me enquire into the Doctrine of Trinity.

I said that I wanted to know how far the doctrine stood up to reasoning. The Professor smiled and said, "Why don't you ask anyone of our priests?" I said, "I have asked them but they say it is a matter of belief or faith, and it should not be subjected to any logic or philosophy. This has upset me. This has raised the question in me, if what I believe in, is unreasonable and illogical, why should I subject myself to any blind following?

Is God so unjust and cruel to expect man to believe in a doctrine about Himself, which no human brain can ever reasonably conceive?